I was being accused. Not by someone, but rather by the enemy of the soul. The one who is described as going around like a “roaring lion” (See 1 Peter 5: 8) The accusations sounded something like this:
For years I’ve struggled with abuse memories. Through prayer, scripture reading and talking with trusted friends, I’ve gained significant insight and healing in these areas. My relationship with God as my Father and with Jesus as my Lord and Savior has strengthened.
And now I was feeling condemned for believing and accepting the insight that I’ve been given. The enemy was suggesting that I was a fake who might as well give up and return to my old life. This was not God’s voice. His conviction and correction doesn’t condemn and accuse.
After several hours of battling I reached my boiling point. I blew up and yelled:
“My Father is a Good Father. He does NOT lie. He does NOT deceive. He does NOT manipulate. He IS righteous. He IS perfect.”
That’s when I realized that the enemy’s accusation was really against the character of God. God is the One who has been giving me understanding about my past. God is the One who has been leading me into deeper places of repentance and relationship with Him. And, I’ve been sharing my journey, hoping to encourage others to continue their own walk with God.
By calling me a liar, the enemy is subtly implying that God has been lying to me. And, if I can’t trust God in this area, how can I trust Him with the rest of my life? The enemy is the liar here, trying to break my trust in God’s good work, and trying to shut me up.
This changes the battle.
I don’t need to stress about my memories and whether or not I’m getting everything perfectly right. Rather, I can boldly proclaim the unshakable truths I do know:
I will trust the Words of my Father. I will trust Him to continue to guide me as I heal from the past and as I grow into my future.
“God is not a man, that he should lie” (Numbers 23:19)
Congratulations Tina!
Tina is the winner of the giveaway of Kelly Minter’s latest book, Wherever the River Flows. Thank you Tina and everyone who participated!
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