This post might be better hidden in my private journal. I’m ashamed to admit this battle. But it is a battle you have probably faced. Maybe you are facing it now….
God, will You REALLY take care of me?
I enjoy writing when life’s events result in posts that hopefully inspire and encourage others. But what kind of encouragement is found in admitting that I’m questioning God?
It is not that anything terrible horrible is going on. It’s just the accumulation of “little” things…
- Self-employment income tax hit hard. I’m tempted to panic about my future.
- My car broke down. While hauling it to the dealership, the towing company did damage 3 times the cost of the initial repair.
- Past trauma continues to remind me that the healing I need exceeds anything I am able to do on my own.
Anxiety and fear. Insecurity and questions. Life has a recurring way of reminding me, reminding us, of this haunting question;
God, will You REALLY take care of me?
At the root lies a fear with the power to cripple and paralyze…. I’m alone. There is no one to help…. God, will YOU really take care of me? I’ve felt fear’s oppressive heaviness today. But a turning point came as I allowed myself to hear God’s reminders;
- although I DID have to pay a good bit for taxes, I had followed the counsel of good friends and had set aside more than enough money for this expense.
- hopefully insurance will cover the damage to my car. But if not, I still have enough.
- God has already brought far more healing and freedom from childhood trauma than I could ever have accomplished without Him.
A couple verses come to mind as I ponder all of this.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:6-7
No, I don’t have my future figured out. Yes, finances are a concern (for ALL of us! 🙂 ) Sure, some pain lingers from the past.
But the above verses are preceded by a simple promise (verse 5) that speaks calm to my spirit. Assures me of God’s care. Lays the foundation for the security I (and you) crave;
The Lord is near.
God, will You REALLY take care of me?
Child, why else am I right here?
“But what kind of encouragement is found in admitting that I’m questioning God?” This is actually very encouraging. When life blows up all around us, we can find ourselves questioning God, wondering how much more we can handle. These verses hit the mark. Thank for sharing them today.
Yep. I’m glad that God is not put off by our questioning! Thanks for the comment Jennifer.
Next time the enemy tries to bring you down with fear and worry remember His promises in Matthew 6:26-27 “Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable they they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”
Those are good “go=to” verses for sure, Bonnie.
Sometimes it is in honestly admitting these ‘shameful’ doubts and feelings to each other that we discover we really aren’t alone at all. Not only is God with us, our words resonate with many people around us!
I not only identified with your questions, I also found encouragement. Blessings!
Thank you Bethany. I’m glad you were encouraged!
Hard stuff. I connect with it right now too. Appreciate you writing.
Unfortunately these battles ARE all to easy to connect with, aren’t they. Thankful for God’s faithfulness. Thank you for your comment Crystal.