Who do I want to be?
I want to be Abraham,
called the “friend of God.”
I want to be Samuel,
knowing God has called me by name.
I want to be David,
broken but still a man after God’s own heart.
I want to be Nathanael,
hearing Jesus say he saw me before I saw him.
I want to be Zacchaeus,
accepting Jesus’ invitation to return to my own home with him.
I want to be one of the children,
running into Jesus’ arms after his rebuke to the disciples.
I want to be the woman daring to touch his robe.
I want to be Mary,
sitting at Jesus’ feet.
I want to be the woman at the well,
realizing for the first time the terrifying beauty of being fully known.
I want to be Peter,
failed but fully restored.
I want to be Paul,
seeing my prison walls crumble.
I want to be John,
laying against Jesus’ chest.
I want to be the one who pours out my tears upon Jesus’ feet.
I want to feel the tears of Jesus pouring out in love over me.
I want to hear his assurance,
“I’ve already chosen you.”
I want to live fully loved.
I want to know I’m enough,
simply because Jesus already is.
This is part of who I want to be.
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12 (NIV)